For Better Fucking Endings. Time For Change.

I am flawed. Who isn't? I need to start to make things easier for myself and everyone else.

CHANGE IS NEEDED. 

From Autumn To Ashes.

Autumn:

Oh why can't I be what you need?

A new improved version of me.

But I'm nothing so good,

no I'm nothing.

Just bones, a lonely ghost burning down songs

of violence, of love and of sorrow.

I beg for just one more tomorrow.

Where you hold me down, fold me in,

deep, deep, deep in the heart of your sins.

I break in two over you.

I break in two 

and each piece of me dies,

and only you can give the breath of life.

But you don't see me,

you don't.

Here I'm in between darkness and light,

bleached and blinded by these nights.

Where I'm tossing and tortured until dawn

by you, visions of you, then you're gone.

The shock that lifts the red from my face

when I hear someone's taking my place.

How could love be so thoughtless? So cruel?

When all, all that I did was for you.

 

I break in two over you.

I break in two 

and each piece of me dies, 

and only you can give the breath of life.

But you don't see me.

You don't.

Ashes:

You might be just what I need.

No, I would not change a thing.

Been dreaming of this so long, 

but we only exist in this song.

The thing is, I'm not worth the sorrow,

and if you come and meet me tomorrow, 

I will hold you down, fold you in,

deep, deep, deep in the fiction we live.

I break in two over you.

I break in two,

and if a piece of you dies,

Autumn, I'll bring you back to life. 

Of course, I see you.

I do. 

Well...

Today, I woke up late for work. Again. Best part is, I don't have an apron! Left it somewhere. :(

So I thought that the store would have a spare one or something. It did have a spare one but someone was already using it. So I had to go to East Point to borrow an apron. When I finally got back on the floor, I was so retarded. There was a slam and I kinda kept freezing up and moving in the wrong directions and I kept stuttering. Sue was pretty pissed. Well I don't blame her. It's me. I'm too rusty in my skills. At that time I was really feeling the stress and I swear I almost broke down. But I kept singing "Three Little Birds" in my head. On repeat. It really helps man. That song works wonders. Never fails to loosen up your muscles and bringing up the mood.  

I wished you were here. 

I would hold you close, 

Ever so near. 

You see the good in me,

that few would ever see.

Even me.

If I'd lost everything.

All except you,

I'd never look further,

for any comfort,

for you are right here for me. 

Fill Me Up.

I need some love sauce in my heart. HAHA! Kae... I just thought this picture is so darn cute. (: 

Machete In Back.

I never thought you would say those hurtful things behind my back.

I never thought you disliked me that much.

I've always thought you were someone I could talk when I needed to. 

I guess I was wrong. 

I can't believe my eyes. 

It's frustrating to know that I confided so much in you when you had so much dislike for me. 

I have never dislike you in anyway.

You've helped me a whole lotta times. I've helped you too. We scratched each other's back. 

But I guess all those time, you were just judging me, gathering things to gossip about.

Never thought I say this but,

GET A FUCKING LIFE. 

Really really upset. I swear, I have never been this upset before. I don't know how I'm gonna talk to you or anything anymore. Really.