Fuck you

Fuck you very much.

Why?

I don't know why you have to be so hostile towards me. Even on the phone, you get frustrated at the slightest joke I make. And when we text, it feels like you just want to shake me off. Is that what friends do to each other? The last time I checked, that's not how you treat a friend.

Sometimes I just feel like you'd rather choose everyone else, and then need me only when you're lonely.I want to feel wanted too you know... And lately you've made me feel very unwanted.

You.

I miss you so much.
When you called, all I wanted to hear was that you miss me too. But instead, you sounded different.
I didn't feel like I was talking to the same person I missed so much.
You sounded so indifferent, so rough, if rough is the word to use.
I don't know how much you have changed, but I know I've changed a little too.
I don't know where we're headed.
All I want is to run into your arms and fall asleep in them, like I used to.
I don't even know if you'd still let me, or has someone else taken my place.
All I want is to shower you with kisses, but nowadays, you wouldn't even let me kiss you hello or goodbye.

I need to let you know that I'll always love you, and I hope you know that too...

Misleaded.

You'd never miss me until I'm gone,
But for now, I'll always be here.
Until the day death yanks me out,
You'll never miss me, until I'm gone.

Frailty.

This month hasn't been very good. It has been one bad news after another, in such short span of time. Two of my closest friends have lost someone very near and dear to their hearts. People have been falling sick too. I pray that my friends would be strong and have some closure eventually. I pray that everyone would have a speedy recovery from sickness. I pray that we will be strong, to make the rest of the year happy again.

Everything else seems like nothing after this month happened.

Lord, take me to you.

It makes me wonder if whatever you say to me is true.  

You say I'm perfect, 

But someone else, to you, is too.

So what does that means?

That you're cheating both our hearts?

Or you've already chose to cheat mine?

I'm choking back the tears you've made me cry,

I wished that someone,

could just take me away from here, now.

Just so I would be out of your way,

So you and your "perfect" one

can become reality.

Go if you want,

Don't let me hold you back.

For you have truly gone,

The day you stopped saying I Love You.

So go say those three words,

To the one you love.

Life has no meaning, 

when no one loves you back. 

You've always said that the fault is mine,

that we're like this.

I would trade the universe, 

Just to be with you again.

I don't know when to give up.

I don't know how.

I guess it's my fate to suffer.

It's just how I am. 

I never let go of the people I love.

With all my heart.

With all my soul.

With all my blood.

J.B.R.W.

Hummingbird

Home bound.

I know the truth.

You've told me I'm the most important person to you. I believe every single word you say. Now that I think of it, how do I know you haven't said that to anyone else? Most important means there can only be one. Do I matter most to you? Or someone else have already taken that place? I just wish you could tell me in my face that "No one has taken your place. And you're still the most important person who matter the most to me." Don't tell me what is not true. Please. It hurts me. 

I CAN'T TAKE IT

I did not give up. I'm just starting over.