I miss the days when we just hug and you'll say I made your day.

I know it's hurting you, but it's killing me.

Oh why can't I be what you need?
A new improved version of me
But I'm nothing so good
No, I'm nothing
Just bones, a lonely ghost burning down songs
Of violence of love and of sorrow
I beg for just one more tomorrow
Where you hold me down, fold me in
Deep, deep, deep in the heart of your sins

I break in two over you, oh
I break in two
And each piece of me dies
And only you can give the breath of life
But you don't see me, you don't

Here I'm pinned between darkness and light
Bleached and blinded by these nights
Where I'm tossing and tortured 'til dawn
By you, visions of you then you're gone.
The shock bleeds the red from my face
When I hear someone's taken my place.
How could love be so thoughtless, so cruel?
When all, all that I did was for you

Now you see me
Now you don't
Now you need me
Now you don't

BMTH.

Time for a little Bring Me The Horizon eye candies fresh from the Alternative Press site. ♥

We will never sleep, 'cause sleep is for the weak
And we will never rest, 'til we're all fucking dead.

EAR.

I've got an ear infection. FML.

Freddie Loves Effy. ♥

I can't help but to hurt, like you can't help but to love. How long more can I withstand this pain? Only time will tell and I sure hope long enough for you to come back to me. I know exactly how it feels when you love someone, but they don't love you back the same way you love them. What can we do? We just have to deal with it, and make the best out of the situation. If it doesn't work out, move on. I know it's easier said than done. If it takes for me to let you go for you to catch your dreams, the pleasure would me mine, to step aside for you to be truly happy with the one you truly love. It'll be the hardest thing I'll have to do, and trust me, I would hate to ever be in that situation, and I do pray to the Lord I'd never have to do that. I am selfish and I want you all to myself, but neither do I want you to suffocate and be unhappy.

This is what I truly feel and I can't hide it no more. I am still only human, just like you are, and we do go through a lot of the same things, more than you'll ever know. 

I don't blame you, for being you.

♥?

LOVE ME, 
THAT'S ALL I ASK OF YOU. 

So long, Astoria.

This blog has been dead for months. In hope to revive it, I'm gonna start writing again. A lot of things happened the past few months or past many months. I have withdrawn myself from NAFA and for that I had to pay a freaking hell lotta money. On a brighter note, I'm getting baptised this Easter! I have started on my strict diet of one meal a day, NO FRIED FOOD, ONLY WATER. I guess it's working? Hopefully.
Benny (Jude's Yorkie) just went through surgery. All went well and he's back home resting.

Basically, that was the main things that happened so far. Others, I fail to recall.

I randomly miss my friends. All of them. Every single one.

I Don't Mind If You Don't Mind. I Don't Shine If You Don't Shine.

AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Fucking stressed.

The Rev.

Rest In Peace

Jimmy "The Reverend Tholomew Plague" Sullivan.

You've been a totally mind-blowing drummer. Your music will forever live on.

No more breath inside
Essence left my heart tonight

Long long ago....

.... I was writing in this blog almost everyday.... Slowly, it became rarely, then it became almost never. That's changing now! I will write. I miss writing in my blog...

Christmas is around the corner. 12 days away to be exact. I still have to get gifts and an outfit for myself. I'm thinking black dress with killer heels? I hope my ankle would be able to heal fully in time. I kinda sprained it about 2 weeks ago... Now it's still a little swollen but way better than it was...

Till Next time.

Ciao.

Can we last til the winter?