Hey world. I'm damn sad. I haven't seen Jude for like really long. I haven't even talk to him for like really long. We didn't have like a proper conversation for like really long. He is unreachable. Can't reach him on phone. Even if he's online, he doesn't reply. What the fuck kinda thing is that? Isn't it better to put me in the freezer and leave me there to die? Seriously. I rather be tortured than to feel that I'm being played. I don't even know if he is playing with my feelings or not. Right now I'm just doing my best to like get hold of him. I really love him, but I don't know if he feels the same.