HEY PEOPLE!!! PAUL TWOHILL IS STILL IN THE COMPETITION!!! YAE!!!! I'M LIKE FUCKING HAPPY THAT JOAKIM'S OUT!!! AND I'M FUCKING HAPPY THAT PAUL'S STILL IN!!!!! AHHHHHHHHH!!!!! I'M AS HAPPY AS I CAN BE!!! 'Cept the fact that I MISS JUDE!!!! ....

I'M WALKING AWAY, FROM THE TROUBLES IN MY LIFE.

Hey people! Today is TEACHERS' DAY!!! LOL. Performed in school. Line Dance. ACES DAY WORKOUT WAS SOOOOOOO FUN!!!!!! LOL. Was suppose to meet JUDE after school today but he couldn't make it. :( Went to Far East with Si Wing and SAM G. to eat CHICKEN RICE!!! LOL. It was good!! LOL. I MISS JUDE!!!!! A LOT!!!! I WANNA SEE HIM SO BAD!!!!

MY BUM IS ON THE RAIL!

I'M SO HAPPY!! OH SO HAPPY!!! I FEEL HAPPY AND GAY!!!!!!! LOL. I GOT BACK TOGETHER WITH........ JUDE!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHH!!!!!!! I LOVE HIM SO MUCH!!

Today's a FUCKED UP day. Actually, EVERYDAY IS A FUCKED UP DAY AT HOME. HOME'S not the word to use. HOUSE. A place where I go to rest, study and stuff. It's not HOME. HOME DOES NOT EXIST IN MY LIFE. PERHAPS AKLTG is my HOME. THE DRAMA ROOM during CCA is my HOME. ANYWHERE, except BLK 204B PUNGGOL FIELD #07-302 Singapore 822204. ANYWHERE. This place is like a WAR-FIELD. NO ONE SENDING IN PEACE-KEEPERS YET??? They better do it fast 'cause DREAMS are being CRUSHED. HOPES have been DISCARDED. JOY has been TAKEN AWAY. I NEED SOME LOVING. I'm hurting so MUCH HERE!!! MY EARS ARE DYING. The machine guns, granade and everything else never stop coming at me. TAKE ME AWAY!!! TAKE ME AWAY RIGHT NOW. I prefer to be that insignificant idiot. They won't notice me then. My ears are going deaf not because of the loud noise aroung but because of the kind of noise I blast myself with. Why do I blast myself? TO GET AWAY. TO BE TRANSPORTED TO A TOTALLY DIFFERENT PLACE but I'm still here. Everyday feels like as if one knife has been added to my body. Isn't it fun? I'm like a DART BOARD. A deer being hunted down. A CAR CRASH.

TONIGHT WON'T MAKE A DIFFERENCE. TONIGHT WON'T MAKE A DIFFERENCE.

SAYSAYSAY!!!! LOL. I woke up on HIGH!!! Anyway, stayed up till 12MN yesterday just to wish JUDE a HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! LOL. Nothing much happen yesterday 'cept that i found out that I was backstabbed. I was stabbed by INVISIBLE KNIFES and I didn't even know it. Talk about thick skin. lol. My dad gave me this poem cut out from the new paper this morning. It was written by Mother Teresa.

People are often unreasonable,

Illogical and self-centred;

Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind,

People may accuse you

of selfish, ulterior motives;

Be kind anyway.

If you are successful,

You will win some false friends

and

some true enemies;

Succeed anyway.

If you are honest and frank,

People may cheat you;

Be honest and frank anyway.

What you spend years building,

Someone could destroy

overnight;

Build anyway.

If you find serenity and

happines,

They may be jealous;

Be happy anyway.

The good you do today,

People will often forget

tomorrow;

Do good anyway.

Give the world the best you

have,

And it may never be enough;

Give the world the best you've

got ayway

You see, in the final analysis,

It is between you and God;

It is never between you and

them anyway.

Mother Teresa

I don't need one more war,Whaz so civil 'bout war anyway.

Today was like kinda stressful. Rushed to meet the deadline of 3 PROJECTS!!! ALL IN ONE DAY! LOL. I guess we did it?. ANYONE WANTS A "I LOVE PAUL TWOHILL" SHIRT? I taking orders!!! GOTTA GET IT ALL DONE BY 2nd SEPT!!!! TAG ME IF YOU WANT IT!!! LOL. I'm like going all SIAO about PAUL TWOHILL!!! HAHA. Okay. JUDE can't go for SHINE JESUS SHINE!!! Now I don't feel like going anymore. sniff. sniff. AHHHHH!!! Why does he have to organize his class chalet on that day??? LOL. I haven't told him yet, but he knows. All because of my bro's DINOSAUR mouth. HOW!!! HOW TO SAY NOW??? AHHHH.......

IT'S ALL ABOUT A SONG IN MY HEAD, THE ONE WHERE THE AUDIANCE IS ALL DEAD.

STRESSED!!!! LOL. EVERYTHING IS DUE TOMORROW!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

WE'RE ALL CHOIR BOYS AT BEST

HEYHEY PEOPLE!!! GOING TO THE MOVIES TOMORROW WITH NICOLE AND GUESS WHOOOOO???? JUDE!!!!! LOL. I guess it's gonna be like kinda weird. lol. Anyway, there's like this new girl who just join our class today. She's from AES. AND SHE STAYS ACROSS THE ROAD FROM ME!!! LOL. She was kinda quite today though. Guess she's getting use to the enviroment. Gotta research for ART!!!! LOL... Going to ESPLANADE with MANIYAM MAMA !!! LOL. TOMORROW.... GONNA WATCH AN AMERICAN HAUNTING!!! IT'S GONNA BE SHOCKING!!! And right at this MOMENT, my MUM is like speaking to MR. TAN. I HANDED UP MY HOMEWORK TODAY OKAY!!!! Back to the topic.. I'M LIKE TERRIFIED OF LIKE FREAK SHOWS! I LIKE SCREAMED IN SAMARA AND CRIED IN THE INFECTION!!! LOL. DAMN SCARY.
ANYWAY, because I didn't end of my last entry with a phrase from a song, I'll end of with 2!!!

IT DOEN'T FEEL RIGHT, HOLDING SOMEONE ELSES HAND.

I DON'T WANNA BE YOU, DON'T WANNA BE JUST LIKE YOU.

HEY PEOPLE! GOOOOOOOOOOODDD MORNING!!!! LOL. WOKE UP LIKE DAMN EARLY LA... LOL.. OKAY TIME TO GO TO SCHOOL!!!

Today was a FUCKED UP DAY. My day has STARTED on the wrong foot. I guess I woke up on the WRONG SIDE OF BED. I need at least 6 HOURS more added into my SHORT 24 HOURS A DAY. Everything is MY FAULT. YA... THE GROUP COME LATE FOR PROJECT... MY FAULT... TUITION TIME NOT REGULAR... MY FAULT... BROTHER DOESN'T WANT TO STUDY... MY FAULT... BROTHER, BROTHER, BROTHER... EVERY BAD THING HE DO IS MY FAULT! ALL BECAUSE I DIDN'T SET A GOOD EXAMPLE FOR HIM TO FOLLOW. FUCK IT! MAY GOOD HAVE PITY ON MY VULGAR VOCABULARY. EVERYTHING BAD THAT HAPPENS IS MY FAULT! EVEN IF I SET AN EXAMPLE, WOULD HE FOLLOW? WOULD HE? THAT'S A QUESTION THAT MY PARENTS NEVER THOUGHT OF DID THEY? HE'S LIKE NOT EVEN 13 YET AND HE IS LIKE TALKING BACK TO MY PARENTS AND ME. WHEN I RAISE MY VOICE A LITTLE, MY PARENTS THINK I'M TALKING BACK. FUCK IT! EVERYTHING I HAVE TO DO! SET TUITION TIME. GIVE WAY TO MY BROTHER. MAKE SURE HE DOES HIS HOMEWORK. FUCK YOU BRO! MY GROUP MEMBERS BETTER NOT BE LATE TODAY BECAUSE I WENT THROUGH ALL THIS SHIT TO ARRANGE A TINE THAT'S BEST FOR THEM. IT'S NOT BEST FOR ME BUT AS LONG AS IT'S BEST FOR THEM I'M SATISFIED. THEN WE CAN GET ON WITH THE PROJECT. MY BROTHER AND DAD BLAMES ME FOR HOW THE PROJECT IS SUPPOSE TO BE DONE. ALL MEMBERS ARE SUPPOSE TO BE PRESENT AND I CAN'T HELP IT IF ONE OF THEM HAVE TO GO TO MALAYSIA YESTERDAY. YESTERDAY WOULD HAVE BEEN THE BEST TIME FOR ALL OF US IF SHE HAD NOT GO TO MALAYSIA. MY BROTHER SAID THAT MY TEACHER WAS "FUCKED UP". HE DOESN'T KNOW WHO HE'S TALKING ABOUT. HE'S TALKING ABOUT THE GREATEST TEACHER IN THE WORLD. I GOT ANGRY SO I SHOUTED BACK. HOW CAN MY OWN BROTHER SAY THIS ABOUT A TEACHER THAN MEANS A LOT? That's it. I've had enough. I've been making sure that everyone is happy what about ME? As a teen I think I have enough to think about everything. CONFUSED. STRESSED. HURT. I guess my world is spining too fast for me to catch up.

IF YOU KEEP ASKING ME I'LL MELT AWAY IN THE SUMMER AIR, IT WON'T HURT HALF AS MUCH AND I'LL BEG FOR YOU TO STOP IT NOW.

Heyhey!!! I'm so SAD that MATILDA was OUT!!! I can't believe how SUPERFICIAL SINGAPORE IS!!! They CLEARLY CAN'T SEE THAT IT'S A SINGING COMPETITION!!! JOAKIM SOOOOO DOOOO NNNOOOOOTTTT DEEEEESEEERRRVVEEEEE TTTTOOOOO BBBBEEEEEEEEEE TTTHHHHHEEEEEEERRRRREEEEE!!!!!!!
Like what the hell la! Joakim can't SING for NUTS and I don't think many PEOPLE GET THAT! I mean he looks like any other guy and he can't sing. he doesn't even look as GOOD as MY BROTHER! What is the WORLD coming TO?! Well... AT LEAST PAUL IS STILL IN!!!!!! BAO LUO LIANG ZHUO SHAN!!!! That's his CHINESE name. LOL. I wonder if he's gonna sing like a CHINESE song next week. LOL.

I WOULD WAIT FOR YOU FOREVER. IF YOU WOULD JUST ASK ME.

HEYHEYHEY!!! Today was kinda boring. I've got like a little confession. I think I still like Jude. Like a lot. For the whole day today and yesterday he was like in my mind. I really don't want to remember. I want to let go but I can't. People says to just tell him but the problem is I dunno how. HOW? Oh well. I couldn't sleep last night. Aidil called so started talking. Fought with my SISSY ASS BRO. I got a new idea for my blog. It is to end every blog entry with a phrase from a song. LOL. Sooo... For this entry it would be...

A SECRET SILENT, IS A SECRET SAFE.


I MISS JUDE!!!! LIKE A LOT.

HEY HEY HEY!!! PAUL TWOHILL TODAY!!! ON SINGAPORE IDOL!!! LOL.. I CAN'T WAIT FOR IT TO START MAN! Anyway. I HATE THIS CERTAIN TEACHER! SHE'S SO BORING AND ANNOYING. AND I CAN'T SAY THE NAME AS I MIGHT GET BUSTED. ASS... Anyway, today during BIO, i kinda like fell asleep.. Damn boring. Whatever that she says is in the BLOODY TEXT! So ya. Oh and i didn't know that SLAM DUNK was like a BLOODY FUNNY COMIC!!! LOL. I don't believe that I actually read manga. LOL. Finished it like today. I was like laughing to myself the whole day la... LOL. Like some crazy idiot. LOL. It was a good comic. Then it was CCA! Actually there was MATH REMEDIAL first but I like kinda PON it. LOL. Went to LONG JOHN'S with NANA! LOL. Talk and talk and talk. Then, DON'T LOOK BACK IN ANGER by OASIS came ON!!! LOL!! NANA AND I WERE LIKE: PPPPPAAAAAUUUUULLLLL!!!! LOL. haha. Then there was like this group of MUDDS that came with bicycles. And their bikes are like lame... There was like head lights for toy motor bikes on the front. Damn LAME! I so should have took a picture of it man! LOL.

TEARS DON'T FALL. THEY CRASH AROUND ME.

Yesterday was like so bloody freaky la! My brother, his two friends and I decided to like go to the HAUNTED HOUSE behind the PUNGGOL MRT STATION. It's called the MATILDA HOUSE. We like went really really really REALLY near to it although we didn't dare to go in. It was already BLOODY FREAKY INSIDE LA!

THIS IS LIKE A PART OF THE HOUSE.

In THAT picture, if you ZOOM IN LIKE ALL THE WAY, there's like this figure. Let me ZOOM it in for you. P.S. NOTHING WAS EDITED.

AWW MAN! It's like bloody blur!

THERE'S LIKE A HEAD!!! LIKE IN BLACK GREY AND WHITE!!! BEHIND THE WEEDS!! AND NEXT TO THAT BROWN THING!

WHAT THE FUCK RIGHT!!! AFTER LOOKING AT THE PICTURE, WE RAN FOR OUR LIVES!!! Freaky...

DUUUUUUDE... TOTALLY SICK! (Sick as in cool.) School was like over soooo QUICKLY! LOL. It felt like I just arrived and it was over even before I could say "SCHOOL'S OUT!" SICK RIGHT? LOL. Anyway, DAWN, SAM G. and I went to ORCHARD. We were like suppose to watch "CLICK" but thhe seats were like totally SUCKY! And the next show was too late. So we went to GRAFFITI CAFE at HEEREN to lunch. THE PONTIAN WAS LIKE SOOOO GOOD! Oh ya... There was this GOTH FREAK there. LAME SHIT ASS GOTH FREAK. I HATE GOTH FREAKS. What's more is that he looks like those kinda CHEENA-FIED PEOPLE who LISTENS TO S.H.E. AND STUFF. JUST IMAGINE THIS:

LILIAN: HEY GOTH FREAK. WHAT DO YOU LISTEN TO?
GOTH FREAK: ER... WHAT DO YOU MEAN LIKE LISTEN? LIKE LISTEN TO YOUR MOTHER THAT KIND ARH?
LILIAN: YA, YA. OF COURSE NOT! WHAT KINDA MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO?
GOTH FREAK: ER... YOU KNOW? S.H.E, ENERGY, 5566, AND ALL THAT COOL BANDS YOU KNOW?
LILIAN: YA. GO SUCK THEIR BALLS YOU BLOODY GOTH POSEUR!

GOTH FREAKS ARE LOSERS!

Haha.. I almost forgot. TODAY, I woke up at like 4 AM just to go to the skatepark to skate when there was no one around. LOL. It was soooo BLOODY COOL! My brother and I had the WHOLE SKATEPARK to ourselves! For the first 2 hours, we skated in semi-darkness. LOL. The sun wasn't even up yet! LOL. We HAd FUN!

SAY SAY SAY!!! Today, my group went to RAFFLES to do our PROJECT!!! It was soooo FUN... I was kinda like Raffles and they were like Farquard. LOL. NAH. We got like really funny pictures... LOL. DAMN LAME but FUNNY.

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!!! LOL. Today was like kinda fun. And short. Was the EMCEE for our school's National Day Celebrations with SHANTINI a.k.a. MANIYAM MAMA! You know what, I think this is like the FOURTH time I emceed with her! MY EMCEE BUDDY! LOL. She's sooooo FUNNY! We like had SOOO MUCH FUN BACKSTAGE! LOL. We were like imagining what if the National Day THEME SONG was like a ROCK SONG. HAHA. The person singing it would be like swingging his/her head off man! :P The crowd would go CRAZEEEEEE!!! LOL. HARDCORE DANCING IS FUN! LOL. Then there would be BODY FLINGS and STAGE DIVES! LOL. A TYPICAL ROCK CONCERT. Let's just hope no one dies. LOL. Anyway, school was like selling MALT CANDY TODAY!!! MALT CANDY ROCKS!!! Yep. School was like suppose to end at 11.30 but they let us off at 11! That's like 1/2 an HOUR EARLY!! LOL. Went to ORCHARD after that to go take pictures of HOT GUYS' EYES!!! LOL. FOR ART. There was this really adorable caucasian kid who was like sooooo adorable! So i asked him if I can take a picture of him and he said okay. After I took the picture, he came over to me and said "My name is William. What's yours?" I told him my name and he took my hand and shoke it like a little adult! So WELL MANNERED! And SO YOUNG! SO CUTE! Some adults don't even have the basic manners man. Such a promising young lad. LOL.OH YA! We met MRS. MEENA at BORDERS!!!! She still remembers us!! LOL. I miss her loads!!! LOL. I FOUND THE GAY BOOK!!! RAINBOW ROAD!!! ARH!! 30 BUCKS PLUS ALL BECAUSE IT'S IN HARD COVER! No cash. ARGH!! I WANT THAT BOOK SOOOO BADLY!!!!! GAYS ROCK! Not that I'm gay or anything. LOL. 30 BUCKS! Gotta save up! I'm soooo tired. LOL.

Today was okay... The school hours past fast.... Reallllyyyy fast... Then it was national day rehearsal... That reminds me... I haven't pick out a ethinic costume for national day!!! I'll do it later... LOL... SINGAPOR IDOL TONIGHT!!! I wonder what Paul's gonna sing tonight... Hope it's not Keane... They're sooooo boring... Maybe he would sing some song from the Beatles! LOL...