Okay. I had a fucked up day in school today. Just the few hours in school and it was already fucked. Fucked up art. Fucked up teacher. I was damn fucked la. I had to freaking leave for rehearsal with puffy eyes. Okay. I cried. I couldn't keep it in anymore. She just keeps giving me this fucked up shit. I know I'm not the only one but fuck it! No one should deserve this. She didn't even look at my boards! FUCKED UP RIGHT?! I have every right to feel pissed off! Damn it! FUCKED UP PIECES OF SHIT!

THE FINALS ARE INCHING NEARER EVERYDAY!
ARGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
My voice is still not recovered yet!!!
I sound like I've got a toad stuck in my throat man!
It's not that bad anymore though...
I still can sing!
But at a deeper tone.
HAHAHA! Like Pei Ying!
Well the good thing about my sore throat is that It's easier for me to do SCREAMO!!!!
YIPPEEE!!!!
HAHAHA! Screamo is life!
My Screamo Hero is none other than... SPENCER CHAMBERLAIN!!!!
You know? That long hair dude from Underoath?
Okay... more than halve the band have long hair..
HAHA!
He ROCKS AT SCREAMO-ING!!!!
I strive to be like him.
One difficulty though...
Everytime I try to do the low kind of screamo, I would end up with a sore throat!
Gosh I wonder to myself how these people do it on a daily basis man!
AAAAAHHHH!!!
I need a Screamo Shi Fu. HAHA!
Then I would be a Screamo Tu Di! HAHA
Not bad arh... My chinese...

YAE!!!!
I FINALLY GOT A PRINTER!!!!
Now I have no reason to not complete my art anymore!!!!
HAHAHAHAH!

ARGHHH!!!!
I hate it when I'm sick.
My voice sounds like crapola.
I've got blood in my phlegm.
Still I have to freakin do art.
And LOADS of Physics homework.
GODDAMNIT!

Just So You Know- Jesse McCartney

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just cant turn away
I shouldn't see you but I cant move
I cant look away

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just cant turn away
I shouldn't see you but I cant move
I cant look away

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

[Chorus:]
Just so you know
This feelings taking control of me
And I cant help it
I wont sit around, I cant let him win now
Thought you should know
Ive tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know

Its getting hard to be around you
Theres so much I cant say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

[Chorus]

This emptiness is killing me
And I'm wondering why I've waited so long
Looking back I realize
It was always there just never spoken
I'm waiting here...been waiting here

[Chorus]

Damn. My teeth hurt....
Just tightened my bloody braces.
It's green.
They don't have black again...
So neh neh.
Okay. I'm changing my art topic.
It's gonna be Damaged from now on...
Anyway, I'm gonna do like some suicidal art thingy.
Suicidal but in the elegant way.
Sounds weird but that's the way it's gonna be.
Got that idea from a song by Boys Night Out.
"The first time I saw a body bent that way
I realise we're more beautiful dead than alive..."
Yep. Nice line right?
I guess I would agree.
HAHA.
Life sucks.

Okay. I haven't been using the com for AGES.
A few updates....
I GOT INTO THE FINALS!!!!!
I GOT INTO THE FINALS!!!!!
I GOT INTO THE FINALS!!!!!
I GOT INTO THE FINALS!!!!!
I GOT INTO THE FINALS!!!!!

Don't ask me how that happened but it just did!
I thought we really screwed up so I'm guessing that there were groups that screwed up worse than us...
AHHHH!!!!! It's so EXCITING!!!!
I'm like on Prozac or something.....

More details on the finals:
1st April
Ngee Ann Poly
3pm to 5pm

If you want tickets, call me!!! Okay. It's not safe to leave your number on the net so I'm not gonna do that!! Just ask me la ya.
Tickets are free!
Please please please come support!
I get points too if people turn up!

Kat's party yesterday was AWESOME!
HAHA! We threw her into the pool!
HAHA. Her dad made a deal with us that if we succeed in throwing Kat's mum into the pool, he'll give us 5 bucks each.
HAHA. Unfortunately, we failed in doing so and faced the "wrath" of being thrown into the pool by him!
Cathy was literally pick up and thrown into the pool man!
She's the first one in.
Then it was me.
HAHAHA. It was the second time in the day that I got pushed in!
I got pushed into the wadding pool by Fel before being pushed in by Kat's dad.
I was freakin' wearing white!
WHITE!
My skin and bra below the shirt could be seen la!!!! HAHA.
Anyway, I stayed in the pool while Nad went to get a towel for me to hide under.
Just as I got out of the pool, Kat's dad was coming towards Nad!
HAHA! I just made things easier for her dad by pushing Nad in!
Well, hope there's no hard feelings yea?
We went into the pool for a swim after that though.
Luckily I brought extra clothes. HAHAH.

AHHHH!!
I think I'm becoming stage one LONER.
Yep. LONER.
I don't know why but I just don't feel like hanging out with anyone much...
I have no idea why I just feel like being alone.
Being alone isn't all that bad.
I feel like the air around me is much easier to breathe when I'm alone.
I feel like I have no one to prove myself to.
I feel like I have my own time.

I think I'll want to be alone most of the time now.

Okay... I had a weird dream last night sleeping over pea's.
HAHAHAHAHA!!!
It had something to do with FRIGGIN' HOT PETE!
Hahahaha!
Okay... It was kinda stupid.
Kinda like a wishful thinking.
Anyway, I dreamt that Pete was in my room.
Don't know why he's in my room but yea, in my dreams he was.
He was wearing the "Leave Me Alone" shirt that he wore at the gig.
He tore up his shirt exactly the way he did it at the gig!!!
WTF right?!
It was almost like I brought him home or something.
HAHAHA.
He's so friggin' hot!
HAHA!
Okay I just thought of a very sick thing la...
HAHHAHA.
Here it goes...
How I wish I can be Pete's bass.
HAHAHA!
People who know what I mean... *wink wink.

FALL OUT BOY WAS FUCKING AWESOME!
PETE WENTZ IS REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY HOT!
HE TORE HIS SHIRT!
THE CUTE SHIRT THAT SAID, "LEAVE ME ALONE."
HE'S STRONG...
HAHAHAHAHHA!
WE MOSHED AT THE BACK.
HAD QUITE A LOT OF SPACE TO DO THAT.
HAHAHA.
I'M LIKE BLOGGING FROM PEA'S COM NOW...
HAHAHA.
MY LEGS ARE FUCKING SORE NOW.
SO IS MY THROAT.
I DID SCREAMO ALONG WITH PETE!
SO DID PEA!
LOL.
DUH SHE CAN.
WITH SUCH AWESOME LOW AND "SEXY" VOICE, THERE'S NO REASON YOU CAN'T.
HAHAHHAHA.
I FELT LIKE I WAS IN AMERICA AT THE GIG.
TOO MANY CAUCASIANS AT ONE SMALL LITTLE MAX PAVILLION.
I FEEL SAD FOR SAW LOSER.
A LOT OF PEOPLE WERE LIKE SHOWING THEM THE FINGER WHEN THEY WERE PERFORMING.
I KNOW WE DIDN'T PAY TO SEE SAM THE BUM, JIMMY THE EMO, MASASHI THE COOL AND MATT THE FAT TO PLAY BUT GIVE THOSE GUYS SOME CREDIT MAN!
I BET HALF THE PEOPLE WHO SHOWED THEM THE FINGER CAN'T SING, WRITE SONGS OR EVEN PLAY AS WELL AS THEM.
THEY WORK THEIR WAY UP THERE YA.
IF SAW LOSER EVER LOST LIKE THEIR WHOLE FAN BASE, I WOULD JUST LIKE TO SAY THAT THEY'LL STILL HAVE ME.
THE ONE-MAN FAN BASE!
HAHAHAHAHA!
JOE LOOKED LIKE HE FORGOT TO SHAVE.
HE LOOKED LIKE HE NEEDED A HAIRCUT TOO.
THE AFRO WAS TOO MUCH FOR HIM.