Christmas Is The Best Feeling.

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I had a lot of fun this Christmas!

My "first" real Christmas! With all the MAJOR LAST MINUTE CHRISTMAS SHOPPING, the going to Christmas Midnight Mass, the partying after that and OPENING GIFTS BY THE CHRISTMAS TREE (a real Christmas Tree at that)!!!

The party was happening! It was so nice to see everyone catching up and having fun. I ended up watching them dance and sing and smile to myself. It's really a truly nice feeling. Just by looking at them, you'll already be infected with their joy. (:

Thank you everyone for making me feel so warm and fuzzy this Christmas. (:

P.S.: I LOVE THE GIFTS! (:

It's nice to see you stress-free and happy.

A day at the Sunlove home opened my eyes to how much I had and how I didn't see how lucky I am. I'm always saying "I'm not pretty enough, I've got no freedom, I don't have friends, I don't have enough love, I don't have enough money... BLAH BLAH BLAH"

A lot of the people there were mentally disabled, and the rest were abandoned by their own family. I never got that sort of treatment from my friends, no matter how little I have, and my family. Aren't I satisfied yet? I should be.

These people staying in the home have no freedom. They don't get to choose what to eat. They don't get to choose what they wear. They don't get a choice whether to go out or stay in. Some of them are more fortunate than others as they get visits from their family, the others, just stare blankly out the window through the metal grills and laugh to themselves when it starts raining. I get to choose when I want to go out, what to eat, what to wear, what hair style I want, and still, I don't think I'm pretty enough or free enough. Shouldn't I be satisfied yet? I should be.

My mum bought some tibits like cakes and candy for us to give out to them. When I was giving them out, the way some of the people there thank me can just make you cry. It's just a small cake in a packet and they had so much appreciation. The smile on their faces just makes your day. I get a lot of things and help these past 17 years. And yet I want more. I should be satisfied.

These people are so full of love and appreciation. They appreciated everything they have though it's not much. If I can have half of how they appreciate life, I think it would help me be a better person.

I feel very ashamed of how unappreciative, demanding and unsatisfied I've been.

Music: Across The Universe by The Beatles.

I can't name you.

Somethings been causing this pain
I know it's not real it just feels that way
How did things dramatically change
Wish things would of just stayed the same

Holidays are here! Though I have no idea what I should start doing but I'm just happy that it's here already...

Took of my cast today... AT HOME. Freaking hospital can only put my next appointment on February 15th NEXT FUCKING YEAR... So I just decided to take it off myself with the help of my STRONG LITTLE BROTHER... (: HAHAHA! We had to use some metal pliers-like thingy scissors to cut the rock-hard cast off... My wrist is still sore, but it felt so good to get out of the cast man. It's in a wrist guard now till it gets better. (:

I wanna go on a photography expedition. Just for fun. Just me and my Diana and whoever who wants to join me. (:

I wish I was somewhere else other than here right now...

Music: Perfect by Army Of Me.

You've probably reached Phuket already. Have fun tanning!

No one else will know these lonely dreams.

Empty these days will be.
Though it's only for a short while.

Okay. I'm supposed to take my cast off today, but had stupid Business Stats mid sem test so I had to miss it... Gonna call the hospital tomorrow to arrange a new appointment. Well, long waits... At the freaking hospital. Just me.

I'm feeling really frustrated.

Music: 23 by Jimmy Eat World.

Tests fucking suck. BIG TIME. DUH...

My hand is still in a cast.. BUT NOT FOR LONG! (:

Bored...

Ben and Jerry's Chunk fest was AWESOME! There were bands performing and I have to say they were not too shabby. They played great MOOOSIC...

I just got a Diana F+. Okay.. Not just... A while ago. I've yet to scan my film in...

My friends and I plan to make an Adam Lazzara shirt because we're so in love with him. News flash, my friend's a dood...

I can't wait for the holiday to come.. Although it's only for 2 short tiny weeks...

I've yet to wrap up Christmas presents man...

Everyone who has been my friend until now will get one. (: Just to thank you guys for being my friend. Really appreciate it.

Okay, I'm gonna go back to studying for Organizational Behaviour... ZZZ....

Music: I Believe In A Thing Called Love by The Darkness.

TOMORROW'S BEN AND JERRY'S CHUNK FEST!!!!

I'm so going... (:
I need ICE CREAM!!!!

Music: Emergency by Paramore.

I need to let you know what I feel.
Because I'm starting to get very tired.
I'm not supposed to feel like that about you.

I can't believe I lost Jude's phone. I feel like such an idiot. Fuck. I am very upset.