For Now. Until I Sort My Life Out.

We're both such magnificent liars.

Why don't we just talk about it? You act like you're okay. I act like I'm okay. We both know that we're not. Why are we being such phonies to each other? I hate the phase we're going through right now. It makes me feel like a shithead. I'm just pouring out my feelings through any means I can. I should stop doing that and speak up instead. Talk to you. You know what, just stab me right now. It'll be much easier, I guess.

I Hate It When You Shout At Me. It Makes Me Feel Really Sad For The Whole Week.

Have you ever felt really upset after someone kinda shouted at you? I'm not someone who gets easily offended if you shout at me or something. But when Jude does that, it makes me sad. It makes me want to cry. I must have done something really wrong to be shouted at, but most of the time I get over it in a split second. But when you do it, I feel shit about myself and wouldn't dare say another word or do something that might make you shout at me again. So I keep quiet. I wouldn't wanna spoil your mood by telling you what I feel on the spot. Sorry baby for doing whatever I did that made you shout at me. :(

UNHOLY CONFESSIONS

TONIGHT IS A7X.
FUCKING EXCITED!
YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW EXCITED I FEEL.
YES I'VE SEEN THEM BEFORE.
BUT I'M STILL EXCITED!
SEE YOU THERE WHOEVER WHO'S GONNA BE THERE!

Never Gonna Be Who You Want Me To Be.

Tell me where our time went
And if it was time well spent
Just don't let me fall asleep
Feeling empty again

Cause I fear I might BREAK
And I fear I cant take it
Some night I'll lie awake
FEELING EMPTY

I can feel the PRESSURE
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you
I can feel the PRESSURE
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you

Now that I'm LOSING HOPE
And there's nothing else to show
For all of the days that were spent
carrying away from hope

Somethings I'll never know
And I had to let them go
I'm sitting all alone
Feeling empty

I can feel the PRESSURE
its getting closer now
We're better off without you
I can feel the PRESSURE
We're better off without you

Without you

Somethings I'll never know
And I had to let them go
Somethings I'll never know
And I had to let them go
But I'm sitting all alone
Feeling empty

I can feel the PRESSURE
its getting closer now
We're better off without you

Feel the PRESSURE
its getting closer now
YOU'RE BETTER OFF WITHOUT ME.

Music: Pressure by Paramore.

NO. 1 COSTUME COSTUME!

Today, Jeremy, Andrew, Jude and I went to search for COSTUMES!!! I got bits and pieces for the my outfit. Andrew got his two outfits. Jude still has to work on getting one. Jeremy got one and a half of his outfit. I still have to work on my top and my shirt for the costume. (: We went to 2 different places to search for costumes. Yea. They were both near each other in arab street so it wasn't much of a problem. After searching for costumes, we went to eat at this place called Charco's in Ang Mo Kio. I swear, you will cry eating the lamb kebab and the lamb ribs... The best part was, it was CHEAP! like 6 something for the kebab and 13 something for the ribs. WOW right? We ordered 5 dishes all together and it amounted to only $42 something! That is really cheap for really good food. Anyways, I'm gonna hit the sack now. Gotta wake up at 6 for work. (:

Music: The Words "Best Friends" Become Redefined.

ANDREW CAME BACK LAST NIGHT! (: We got him a slice of GIANT CHOCOLATE CAKE at the Airport, but we hid it from him all the way to Newton. When he was coming out after grabbing his luggage, Jeremy was holding my notebook with SONSUB scribbled on it, and I just screamed "SMILEEEEEE!!!!" and snapped a picture of him with my Fuji Instant camera. Yep. Went to Newton to eat and catch up. (: When we arrived there, people were just crowding around us, shoving their freaking menu in our faces, not giving us time to even breathe.... I hate it when people breathe down my neck when I'm making up my mind about food or clothes or something... It just makes me not wanna buy anything from them... So I just got 4 BBQ chicken wings... Didn't really wanted to make a choice... After talking and talking and talking, we decided to head home. Yep. So that was my day yesterday. (:

Music: Crank It Up by Hadouken!.

Little Red Riding Hood.

I'm gonna be Little Red Riding Hood on Halloween! (: Already reserved a red cape for it. SO COOOL! Well, I still haven't got the rest of my costumes... Yea. GOTTA GO FIND!

Anyways, ANDREW'S COMING BACK!!!! TONIGHT!!! AT 12am... Gonna go fetch him from the airport with Jude and Jeremy. Yep.

Music: That's Not My Name by The Ting Tings.

I Can't Sleep. Everything I Ever Do Is A Lie Without You.

Man... I went to bed at 9pm. And now I'm wide awake... I was wide awake since 12am... I have no idea why I cannot continue to sleep. What to do. And Jude's not awake yet. Since 4 plus. What to do. I need to pee. But I'm lazy to get down from my bunk bed. What to do. Maybe I will really have to get down if I don't want to wet my bed. HAHAHA! I'm like really sleepy but I can't sleep. Kae. I shall try and sleep. Anyways, I got new Macbeth Shoes today! (: I know, I know. What the hell do I need so many Macbeths for. I just like them. Like A LOT. They are the most comfy shoes that look awesome. Unlike Crocs. Crocs puts you in danger of getting your toes ripped off by the hungry escalator. And I got myself a new Instant Camera. The Fuji Film one. Since Polaroid film isn't gonna be around for long, and they are very costly now, I decided to get another instant camera. Yep. Sad though. I really love Polaroid. OKAY. I NEED TO SLEEP. GOING FOR A VC MEETING TOMORROW.

I found an old picture when I was looking through the photo albums. And I framed it up. (:


I really miss them... and all the crazy stuff we used to do together. I think Qing took this because I'm in the picture. (: Really hope we could meet up soon and such. (:

Music: Dude, I Totally Miss You by Tenacious D.

Ich hasse Bumser wie rachel

That 21 year-old, old hag from Germany, known by the name of "Rachel" is a fucker. She goes on Fluffy's blog and starts ranting about music, which she knows nothing of. ZILCH! Seriously, which 21 year-old in the world has time to actually read a 16 year-old's blog and quarrel with her? ESPECIALLY WHEN SHE'S IN FUCKING GERMANY AND ANDY'S FROM RED-DOT SINGAPORE. That questions whether is she really from there. She's probably a fat-ass loser with nothing better to do while everyone's out partying and such. And she calls me a kid. Yea. I am a kid. TURNING 7 LIKE I SAID IN ANDY'S BLOG. Seriously, I doubt she's German. If she is, PROVE IT SUCKKA! I can speak a bit of German. So BRING IT ON BIATCH!

Wenn Sie dieses lesen, sind Sie entweder Deutscher oder benutzen einen Übersetzer.

Translate that for me weiblicher Hund.

Music: A-Punk by Vampire Weekend.