Went for drama today. Assigned to be the runner. LOL. Kinda frantic. Haha. Finding the lost casts and stuff. Haha. This is only a practice though. Imagine on the 4th man! I bet it'll be ke-raaaaayyyy-zzzeeeee! It was kinda fun. Before drama, went to Compass Point with DAWN for breakfast. At last I got to see DAWNEY!!! I miss her like soooo much! LOL. Updated her on "the situation". Ahem. She knows what is it about. LOL. Yep. Then I told her about the RK house prank thingy that FISHBALL sent me last night and it was such a coincedence that it was actually recorded by ben and his bro! LOL! (ben's her ex.... ) LOL. I didn't have to add that but oh well. Drama went well. Almost everyone is irritated by TUSH but few of us (me included) appreciate the things he's doing for the production. I mean he takes the trouble to give feedback to the casts and stuff, do vocal warm-ups. Ya! He even stayed back today to like help with the painting of sets while the other guys left even before we could say BALAMOS! That's how much effort he's putting into the production. LOL. Yep. After Drama, went to have lunch at Mac's. McSpicy meal.... Yummy. Came back home. Brother home with really irritating friends of his. They like come over everyday as if they don't have their own home to be in. What's worse is that they are so vulgar and they think they know it all and seen it all. They don;t even know that there are in denial. I don't even think they would know what's that. LOL.
Away from that topic before I get vulgar too. LOL. I don't get being in love. It's always a different feeling. Why can't it just be a constant feeling? I mean sometimes it feels damn good. But some times it's painful. Sometimes, it hurts. Well there's a song that goes "Well it's LOVE. Make it HURT." I guess that's it. Love is suppose to hurt i guess. Like sex? LOL. So LOVE might be = to SEX after all. HAHA. Oh well. I'm like damn bored. Anyone for ice-skating? Jumping of the second floor? Anyone? Fishing? Getting wasted? Gig-ing? I've got ideas but no friends. That's like damn sad and it makes me feel like a loser la. LOL. At least I have my X-BOX THREE SIXTY! Okay. I'm bored of my x-box too. DAMN!!!!! 3 FULL DAYS TILL I'LL BE FLYING AWAY FROM ALL THIS SHIT OF BEING IGNORED AND BEING TREATED COLDLY! YA! YOU KNOW WHO I'M TALKING ABOUT! FUCK YOU GUYS!

Hey hey hey. I really really really really really really really like this guy la! I don't think I want to say who yet..... Hmmm. Well some people already know but those who know please keep it to yourselves okay! Anyway, I just really feel like telling him but I'm afraid that we'll drift further after that. Even if I told him, i might just be embarrassed as I don't even know if he'll feel the same way. I don't even know if he already has someone he likes. I just have this gut feeling that I'll never find a place in his heart. Like NEVER. I dunno. Everything seemed more simpler when emotions are not concerned. I guess is in the package of puberty. We were like closer before. Now were practically kinda like strangers with little words for each other.

BOYS LIKE YOU ARE A DIME A DOZEN. (yea right....)

Hey people. I'm feeling kinda bummed out and stuff. People just can't take me for who I am. I mean if you would have told me personally, I might have done my best to like change, but there will always be a part of me that is me and even I wouldn't be able to change that. And if you judge on looks, I'm not even close. What the use of looks when you don't have the personality to carry it out? What the use of looks? To decieve people?

Hey. Went for booster yester day. Booster was great man! All my participants were there! Haha! There were shortage of coaches so we had to do mega groups! LOL. I did the mega group with VANESSA! LOL. She was kinda clueless though. Anyway, she kinda go with the flow. Haha. Anyway, PAUL'S GONNA BE AT THE CHRISTMAS BASH!!!!! Well, most prob. AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! LOL! Anyway, after booster, the coaches went to Marina Square. Well, it's like a "tradition" for the coaches to go out after booster. LOL. Well at least that's what we did for the last camp. And the one before. And the ones before the one before. And the ones last year. You get the picture. LOL. But this year's outting was quite disappointing though. We couldn't agree on what we wanted to do and stuff. Oh well.... just like what fish said. It's life. Deal with it. From a few became 3. Fishball, Vanessa and me. Decided to go watch the Grudge 2. Van freaked like crazy. Couldn't feel my hand man! Fish looked bored. Lol. I was in the middle of freaked and bored. Some parts were really funny though. And boring and scary. Actually, it was the sound effects that makes it damn freaky. LOL. Before that, wen to the arcade. Played Tekken 5 with Fish! I BEAT HIM!!!! LOL. And I'm a Girlie! HAHA. Then me and Van went parapara-ing. Yep. parpara! It was kinda fun. HAHA. It had been a LONG time since i did that! HAHA. When we were dancing, Fish looked really bored.... So we wanted to drag him to do the parara thing but couldn't. LOL. Well..... Okay. Fish didn't say a word almost through out the "outting". One word for that. EMO. Van said he was pms-ing. But he's a guy! LOL. Well when I was on the bus home, my mom called me and said that she's going to leave for the airport already and wanted to see me before she leaves. Thank GOD I arrived home in time to see her off. I'm gonna miss her. Hope she gets me some nice stuff from HONG KONG! LOL. Well I got home. Very tired and weary. Bathed. Talk to fish for a while. Went to bed. But i wasn't sleeping yet. I was kinda reflecting about my life and stuff. Kinda got all emo and cried myself to sleep. Haha. It's been a long time since I did that. It was great being able to let out all that I kept inside myself after so long. When I woke up this morning, I got a shock of my life man! My eyes were like puffy! Haha. Well it's better now. Now I know why I don't like to cry. People say that crying like a sign of weakness. Not for me. I still can remember a certain incident in school when I got so stressed up I broke down. This girl, said " No wonder she's in Drama." What the hell does she mean by that? That I cried my way in, through the audish? Well. Some people are like that. What to do.

I CRY MY MEMORIES AWAY.

Hey PEOPLE!!! I know I haven't been updating my blog on time. lol. Now it sounds like a school assignment. Anyway, just a brief of the happenings. WORK. I'm getting SO TIRED of work. I don't wanna work anymore. I wanna enjoy life like a 15 year-old girl should. You know, do stuff like shopping and just sipping coffee in Starbucks while exchanging the latest gossips... Stuff like that.
CAMP! IAG 1 WAS A BLAST! YEEEEHAAAAA! It was definitely better than work although it was more tiring becaus that is something I LOVE to do. HOLY DEVILS NUMBER ONE!!! LOL. I mean literally they are number one. LOL. Oh ya they are my group! I'm so proud of them! Continue doing your best ya! I made so many new friends and good friends during the camp. Friends that I've never met before and friends that i wasn't so close to before have now become a part of me. Without them a chunk of me would be gone. Lol. Now imagine if for example, Kenneth is not my friend, my nose would be gone! Haha. Anyway, when the camp ended it was quite a sad thing for me as I myself am not sure if I would be able to coach anymore camps before my 'O's. Yep.

Now that was quite old news. Haha. Here comes the new news! HAHA. Okay that was damn lame. HAHA. Anyway, I like this guy but I don't think I would have a place in his heart. I bet he already likes someone else. Or maybe not. But in cases like this, I have low self-esteem. LOL. HAHA. Whatever la. Let's just see what happens in time. Well. It's all part and parcel of life. And puberty. HAHA. Okay. I just ran out of time. Gotta go for drama! BYE

IF WE'RE TRYING, YEAH WE'RE BREAKING FREE.

HEYHO PEOPLE. Feeling kinda woozy today. LOL. Went for VANESSA'S SHI BAI PARTY! LOL. The BBQ party slowly evolved to a DRINKING PARTY! LOL. What's more, WE'RE ALL UNDERAGE! LOL. At first we only bought 5 bottles of Q Vodka and 1 GIANT HOEGARDEN. When the party started, we finnished the drinks before you could say "HOEGARDEN!" Yep. HAHA. There wasn't much food there too because we ran out of cash buying the drinks and nonsensical stuff, etc. milk bottles, candles.... LOL. Vanessa took a bottle of Q Vodka, took a sip, finds it really good, drinks all of it. LOL. Then I opened my bottle. Takes a sip. Takes another sip. Takes a swigg. And there's non left in the bottle. LOL. we couldn't open HOEGARDEN because we didn't have a bottle opener with us. We decided to like test out the PRO way of opening the bottle. LOL. The bottle broke. LOL. Just the neck. So that's when the baby bottle comes into use. We didn't have any paper cups you see. HAHA. Vanessa decided to open another Q Vodka since there was an extra. LOL. After drinking that bottle, she was already kinda drunk. LOL. Speech slurring, seeing double, talking crap.... LOL. there was no more Vodka left for me! LOL. The other 2 bottles were for Iggy and Meng Xiong. LOL. When Iggy arrived, he finnished the vodka in a swigg. So we decided to go get more from the 7/11 at Junction 8. LOL. I can't possibly purchase alchohol right. I don't look mature enough to. LOL. SO IGGY, who looks like a 16-year-old trapped in a 21-year-old's body, had to do it. lol. We're so lucky that they didn't ask for his IC. Wheew. Bought 4 bottles of HOOCH and 1 bottle of NITE. LOL. We were actually suppose to buy a 1.5L cola and a big bottle of BARCADI. Yep. But sadly they didn't have the coke so we just had to make do. Lol. When we went back to Vanessa's place, just sat down and drank. It's nicer when it's chilled and it was chilled unlike our first batch of drinks. HAHA. YAE! I like drank 2 BOTTLES OF HOOCH. Yep. So that make 3 bottles of alchohol. Haha. That was when I started getting really really high. LOL. And woozy. LOL. I could still think straight though. LOL. But I had a bad feeling that I'm gonna get a HANGOVER. LOL. Well it wasn't very bad this morning. I even woke up earlier than usual. LOL. HOOCH IS DAMN TASTY! LOL. Oh we couldn't open NITE so I brought it home. LOL. Let's hope my folks won't find out. HAHA. I got a better idea about ending the blog kinda thing you know. Like instead of quoting from some song I shall write what song I'm listening to at the moment. LOL.

GUNS 'N' ROSES- SWEET CHILD 'O MINE

p.s. I tasted smoked salmon without cooking it further. Just straight from the pack! It was GREAT! THANK YOU MUMMY SHUYI!!!!

I'm LIKE TOTALLY CRAZY ABOUT MCR'S WELCOME TO THE BLACK PARADE!!! I know. I know. It's MAINSTREAM. BUT IT'S GOOD STUFF MAN! LOL! Damn it! I haven't got their CD! @$$%^@!!$%^^# Anyone willing to get it for me? *puppy eyes* LOL. Anyway, I LOVE THEIR LYRICS!!!! And the starting is soooo UNIQUE! I LOVE GERARD'S NEW HAIR MAN! LOL. Looks kinda weird and funky but THAT'S WHAT I LOVE ABOUT IT! He would be so cool to date! Lol. Like as if I'll ever get the chance. LOL. THIS ALL WAS ONLY WISHFUL THINKING! LOL. Like from CUTE WITHOUT THE E. LOL.

Lalalala. Went shopping with my dearest mummy today! Bought a FRED PERRY BAG! Yae! LOL. Yesterday, there was this like really hot guy at my workplace! I'm talking about drop-dead gorgeous! Lol. I dreamt about Jude last night. Kinda freaky you know. I mean after all he's my ex and why would I dream of him? This is not the first time though. Why? Oh well. I wanna go for PAUL'S GIG AT DXO!!!! LOL. I'm like the ultimate PAUL-NATIC! Yep. Lol. Can't wait to go to AUSTRALIA!!!! LOL. That reminds me. I have to go work on the soveniors I'm gonna give my yet to be new found friends! LOL!