Okay. Disappointment. Again. My braces won't be off until the 20th October. What The Fuck....

Well, at least the rest of the day wasn't so bad. Hung out at Starbucks at Tampines Mall for a while, got myself a Venti Hazelnut Caramel Frappucino Blended Coffee. After that, went to meet Jimmy at Compass Point for lunch. Well he ate Subway, I just ate chips. After that, Judey called and asked if we wanna go eat Boon Tong Kee with his family. (: And now I'm like damn full... HAHA! I miss hanging out with them la... I should work less.

Music: Mr. Know It All by Saw Loser.

1.30PM Appointment.

I really wanted you to come along with me. Well, no biggie. Brace-less when you next see me! (:

Music: Cute Without The E by Taking Back Sunday.

Ladeda/17% Virgin.

I'm bored. Oh...? What's this? 2 quizzes for me to do?! YAY!

RULES:
1. Put Your iTunes, Windows Media Player, ETC on Shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
5. Put this on your journal.

1. If someone says, "Is this okay?" You say?
Dear Prudence -The Beatles. (???)

2. How would you describe yourself?
Your Friends Are Gone- Circa Survive. (HAHAHA! You got no friends!)

3. What do you like in a guy?
What Went Wrong- Saves The Day. (HAHA! Whatever wrong I guess.)

4. How do you feel today?
Say Days Ago- The Used. (no comment)

5. What is your life's purpose?
Chasing Cars- Snow Patrol. (ZLOL!)

6. What is your motto?
Bulls In Brooklyn- The Academy Is... ( WTF )

7. What do your friends think of you?
Under the Bridge- Red Hot Chilli Peppers. (No Comments.)

8. What do you think of your parents?
Live Fast- Pensive. (They Live Slow.)

9. What do you think about very often?
Maybe We Should Just Go Home- The Joel Plaskett Emergency. (Kinda true.)

10. What is 2 + 2?
Ladies Of Cambridge- Vampire Weekend. (LMAO)

11. What do you think of your best friend?
It's Time To Dance- PATD. (they dance??)

12. What do you think of the person you like?
Golden Skans- Klaxons. ( Makes no sense dude...)

13. What is your life story?
Mothership- Enter Shikari. (?)

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?
Waltz Moore- From First To Last. (Sadist? According to the song...)

15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
I Know What You Buried Last Summer(Mesh up)- Senses Fail and Taking Back Sunday. (So critical. Tsk tsk.)

16. What will you dance to at your wedding?
Taxi Driver- Gym Class Heroes. (I really would.)

17. What will they play at your funeral?
Say(All I Need)- One Republic. (Maybe. It's sad though.)

18. What is your hobby/interest?
Holidays In The Sun- Sex Pistols. (I'd rather be in the shade.)

19. What is your biggest fear?
Nikki FM- Hawthorne Heights. ( Nikki is actually the nickname of a girl I used to be best friends with)

20. What is your biggest secret?
Slacker- Son Of Dork. (HAHA! I'm a slacker and that's no secret.)

21. What do you think of your friends?
Come Back To Me- Plain White T's. (?)

22. What will you post this as?
Ladeda- Allura (It's a cute post name.(: )

23. What song would you play during your first time having sex?
My Doorbell- White Stripes (It has a good beat. Not bad, not bad at all.)



#2
Start with 100% and minus 1%
for everything that you’ve done.
Then repost as your ___% virgin.
[ ] Smoked.
[X] Drank alcohol.
[X] Cried when someone died.
[ ] Been drunk.
[ ] Had sex
[X] Been to a concert.
[X] Given a handjob/gotten a handjob.
[ ] Given a blowjob/gotten a blowjob.
[ ] Been verbally sexually harassed.
[ ] Verbally sexually harassed somebody.
[X]Felt someone up and/or been felt up.
[X] Laughed so hard something came out of your nose.
[ ] Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend before.
[ ] Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend.
[X] Been to prom.
[X] Cried at school.
[X] Gotten lost in a WalMart or a department store.
[ ] Went streaking.
[ ] Given or receieved a lap dance.
[X] Had someone of the opposite sex in your room
[X]Had someone of the opposite sex sleep over.
[X]Slept over at someone of the opposite sex’s house.
[ ]Kissed a stranger.
[X]Hugged a stranger.
[ ]Went scuba diving.
[ ]Driven a car.
[X]Gotten an X-Ray.
[ ]Hit by a car.
[X]Had a party.
[ ]Done drugs.
[ ] Played strip poker.
[ ] Got paid to strip for someone.
[X] Ran away from home.
[X]Broken a bone.
[X] Eaten Sushi.
[ ]Bought porn.
[X(I swear it was an accident!)]Watched porn.
[ ] Made porn.
[ ] Had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[X]Been in love.
[X]Frenched kissed.
[X]Laughed so hard you cried
[X]Cried yourself to sleep.
[X]Laughed yourself to sleep.
[X] Stabbed yourself. by accident
[X]Shot a gun.
[X]Trash talked someone and then acted like their best friend the next day.
[X]Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours
[X] Been online for 9 consecutive hours.
[ ]Watched an animal die.
[ ]Watched a person die.
[ ] Kissed and/or messed around somewhere with at least 1 person present.
[X] Pranked somebody.
[ ]Put somebody in the hospital.
[X]Snuck into someone’s room and/or your own room after being out.
[ ] Kissed somebody of the same sex.
[X]Dressed punk.
[X] Dressed goth.
[X] Dressed preppy.
[ ] Been to a motocross race.
[X] Avoided somebody.
[ ] Been stalked.
[X] Stalked someone.
[X] Met a celebrity.
[X] Played an instrument.
[ ] Ridden a horse.
[X] Cut yourself.
[X] Bungee jumped
[ ] Ding dong ditched somebody
[X] Been to a wild party.
[X] Kicked a guy in the balls.
[X] Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a friend.
[ ] Went out with your friend’s crush.
[ ] Got arrested.
[ ]Been pregnant.
[X]Babysat.
[X]Been to another country.
[ ]Started your house on fire.
[ ]Had an encounter with a ghost.
[ ]Donated your hair to cancer patients.
[X]Been asked out by someone that you never thought you’d be asked out by.
[X]Cried over a member of the opposite sex.
[X] Had a boyfriend/girlfriend for over 3 months.
[X]Answered the phone while you were in the shower.
[X] Ate a whole carton of ice cream all by yourself.
[X]Had a job.
[X]Gotten cut from a sports team.
[X] Been called a slut.
[ ]Danced like a slut.
[X (HAHA! PAUL TWOHILL)] Been mistaken for a celebrity.
[X] Been in a car accident.
[X] Been told you have beautiful eyes.
[X] Been told you have beautiful hair.
[ ] Raped somebody.
[X] Danced in the rain.
[X]been rejected
[ ] walked out of a restaurant without paying.
[X] Punched someone/slapped someone in the face
[ ] Been raped

HAHA! I'M 17% VIRGIN.WTF.

I'm really bored. I wanna sleep and I can't.

I'm taking of my BRACES TOMORROW!!!

Music: A Little Bit Longer- Nick Jonas.

Yesterday was really nice. (: Jude and I went out to town to hang out. Just the two of us. (: We went to Plaza Singapura first. Walked around. Went into Spotlight to source for fabrics to make our Halloween costumes. Jude's still deciding between being Woody from Toys Stories or Cousin Itt from Addams Family. I wanna be Wednesday Addams. (: The fabric is a little hard to find though. I'm not giving up! Anyways, I got myself a pair of knitting needles and two balls of yarn. Just felt like knitting again. My old needles went missing ages ago. This time I'm gonna actually finish knitting something. Maybe a scarf or a beanie. (: After that, we walked to Somerset. It's been so long since we walked in the City together. HAHA! Yea. Went to get the 9.25pm tickets for Mamma Mia. Went to have dinner at Pasta Mania. Walked around Orchad after that. Went to Far East Plaza to find for hair extensions for the Cousin Itt costume. ANd we realise that if we're really gonna use hair extensions for the costume, the total cost will amount up to over 500 bucks. Yea. Still finding for other alternatives.

I need to go to work now so i'll update more when i get back or something. Ciaos!

Automatic Eyes.

This is almost what I felt. Not the stuff that happened or anything. Just the feeling.

Staring at the mirror through your hair,
you can’t see everything that you did to me.
With your automatic eyes, five years disappeared.
FIve years disappeared that night.

Do you want me to stay,
Do you want me to go?
Do you think I recognize
the look on your face when you think that
I know?
Blinded as the shades draw closed,
time’s up for us
Would you want me to go,
If you knew what I know?
If you knew what I know.

Staring at the wall above the bed,
I can’t sleep with all the secrets that you keep.
With your automatic eyes,
five years disappeared.
FIve years disappeared that night.

-William Beckett
thewilliambeckettblog.com

We Don't Talk, You Won't Know, I Won't Know.

Just came back from Devin's 5th birthday party. I didn't really have to leave but I was pretty tired out. I've got a bar test tomorrow too. And I didn't really feel too good. Yea.

And now I'm just sitting in my bathtub. Seriously. Why? I need to feel safe. I haven't felt safe for a really long time. I haven't felt warm in a really long time. I feel that the bathtub is the safest place. Free from judgements. Free from staring eyes. Free from hurt. You could just be yourself. Cry if you needed to, and nobody is gonna be there to point and whisper. Nobody's gonna care, because nobody knows. And that is the safest.

Recently I've been feeling down. I happy at work and everything. After all that, I just go back to feeling down. I feel neglected. I try to get noticed, but I don't wanna try too hard. I just miss the times I get to be myself in public and just be free. I hate being restrained.

The bathtub is the safest place.

I am fucking weird. Stay the fuck away from me.

I'm beginning to love my job. It tires the fuck out of me but dude, it's way fun. Call me mad but the worse way to torture me is to leave me with nothing to do. I hate feeling bored. Bored= Lonely. Lonely= Alone. Alone= Loser. You know what I mean.... HAHAHAHAHA! Yea. Made a whole lotta Frapps today. I love making Frapps.

Well after I ended work, went to Compass Point to meet Jude, Clara and Devin. (: Someone was extremely happy and giggly today. Devin just kept laughing and laughing and laughing. He's happy because his birthday is gonna be here soon! He's like the most adorable boy I've ever met. (:

I've got work at 3 tomorrow, and I didn't really got much rest today either. So I shall go chill out and watch Project Runway.

Music: True Colours by Cyndi Lauper.

Father, thanks for finding fault in me. If it wasn't for you, I wouldn't have gone against everything you said and actually do something I like. Thanks. Thanks for not believing in me.

IN YOUR FUCKING FACE.

Pierce? No Pierce?

Hey hey! Went over to Fluffy's place today to record some videos. Yep. It was fun. (: Miss hanging out with those peeps la...

Anyways, I wanna get a hip surface piercing. Yea. Like seriously. But I'm a sucker for pain and apparently hip surface piercings hurt like fuck. And the piercing might get rejected and leave a horrible scar. But if it heals properly and stuff, it's gonna be so beautiful!!! Yea. Damn... To pierce or not to pierce? That is the question.
I'm getting my braces off on the 29th this month. I wanted to get snake bites once I got them off, but... I don't really feel like it anymore. But at the same time I want them. Hiya. I gotta make up my mind.

I should just get them right?

You know what I should do? I should go to some piercing place and bombard them with whatever questions I have about piercings and stuff. Then I will know more about it and the pros and cons and stuff. Yea. I shall do that.

Music: A Little Piece Of Heaven by Avenged Sevenfold.

LUSH.

I WISHED I COULD STAY CAREFREE AND HAPPY EVERYDAY.

Sorry. Random post.

Last night, Jude came over to my place before we went over to Punggol End to play with fire, light lanterns and eat mooncake. Jacintha, my brother's friend (or girlfriend-to-be) came along too. So did my brother. Jeremy met us at Punggol End. We played with fire. HAHAHA! Burned all the sparkler boxes and stuff. Flood the whole grass patch with wax. Yea. It was really relaxing and stuff. Then Jac had to go back home. So we took 82 back to our place, Jac hoped onto a cab and we went up to my place to hang out. HAHAHA! For the first time ever, Jude and Jeremy are hanging out at my place, WITH MY PARENTS' CONSENT! HAHA! Yea. We ordered Macs. Ate. Then it was into my room it was. Jeremy and Ricky were gambling. HAHAHA! Jeremy lost 10 bucks to Ricky. Jude and I were on the top bunk, just chilling out. (*AHEM*) And soon, it was like 4am! my parents were gonna wake up and they would be really supprised to see Jude and Jeremy still here so they left. I wished they could stay longer though. I wished the night would never end. Well, tonight we're gonna go play some more!!!!

Music: Fall For You by Secondhand Serenade.

Surrender.

I'd give up everything in my possession for you.
What are you willing to give up for me?

I'd do everything you ask me to.
What are you willing to do for me?

I'm really moody now. I have no idea why I'm hurting so much but yea, it's the harsh truth. I guess I'm PMS-ing. I can't express my feelings right. There's just no words to how I'm feeling. All I know that I'm feeling sore. I'm feeling hurt. I just feel like crying my heart out now.

No one knows who I truly am,
no one seems to care.
when ever I need a shoulder to cry on,
no one's ever there.

No one knows of the pain I hold inside,
its much too deep.
never being able to express myself,
all I can do is weep.

No one knows what it feels like
to truly be me.
always hiding, and never free.

No one knows,
is that all I can ever say?
I'm tired of this and don't want
to keep living this way.

Maybe one day I'll have the strength
to let my true feelings show.
but until now I'll just keep saying,
"No one knows"

Music: You Don't Love Me by The Kooks.

I'm so bored. Thank God for The Catcher In The Rye though. I'm dying... It's a good book. And this is a random post.

Okay. I gotta post this up man!

Jeremy is one very cute friend of mine.
He does the funniest shits ever.
Like today...
We went to Pizza Hut for dinner. (Jude, Him and I)
And we asked if the drinks for the set could be changed from ice lemon tea to Pepsi,
He thought we wanted Pepsi.
We thought he wanted something else.
So Jude said "2 Pepsis and... *gestures towards Jimmy*"
And Jeremy said "2 Pepsis, 1 Coke."

HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

Yea. That brighten up my day la... So cute la he... HAHAHAHA!

Music: Monsoon by Tokio Hotel.

Je T'Aime Plus Qu' Moins Que Demain

HAPPY FIRST YEAR BABY!

I can't believe it has been a year man.
Time do pass fast when you have someone to love.

I know, I know it's damn cheesy...
And so is my little compilation of pictures....

Hope you like it though! (:

LOVE YOU JUDEY BOY!

I HOPE...

that you won't forget tomorrow.